I can't prove this, but I'm sure it's true: nobody on their deathbed ever wished they'd spent more time watching television. Life is short, and there are too many activities that are more important and fulfilling than sitting in front of a television for hours on end. That's not to suggest you should remove television from your life completely. But I've come to see it as something best placed at the edge of life, rather than the center.
I didn't always feel that way. In fact, there was a period in my life when I wasted nearly six hours of my day watching television and watch till I fell asleep near midnight. Eight hours later, I'd wake up with the TV still on, feeling no more rested than when I went to sleep. When you do the math, it's rather shocking. Six hours per day adds up to 2,190 hours over the course of a year, which equates to about 91 days.
Although I failed to recognize it at the time, it's clear now that watching TV had become a full-blown（全部）addiction for me. It was a way that I used to distract myself from the problems， fears and challenges I was refusing to deal with in my life. I used television to distract from the shame, embarrassment and stress I felt about some irresponsible financial decisions and their resulting fallout. I used it to avoid facing my fear of stepping out into the world more fully, connecting with others and pursuing the higher purpose to which my soul was being called. I used il to cope（处理）with boredom and fill the space of an otherwise empty life.
In short，my life was a mess and my self-esteem（自尊）was short，and while TV may have provided a short-term escape from that reality, it kept me locked within it.
Luckily, now I no longer live such a life. So how did I make it?
