I spent many years of my life pretending(假装). I told myself I was happy with my job, although I knew from the first day that it wasn't fit for me. I pretended to agree everyone around me to avoid the risk of disagreement. After (spend) so much time hiding my true self, I finally felt that I'd had enough of pretending.
I made decision to stop pretending. It's (easy) to pretend than to be truly honest with ourselves, but it comes with a heavy price. If I pretend my job is satisfying, I probably won't make the necessary changes to create a new job that will bring (I) much pleasure to my life. If I pretend to be happy in a relationship when my true (feeling) clearly say something else, how can I improve my relationship?
These days, I'm always saying what's true for me. When I (ask) to work on a new project, I said that I wasn't good at it I had little experience with it. In the past, I always hid that fact and felt bad about it for days or even weeks. During parties, I admit(承认) that I hate my job and can't wait (leave). In the past, I pretended I liked it just to fit in with everyone else.
Pretending is so costly we give away not only money but also peace of mind and happiness. I stopped pretending from then on.